All my life I have been called direct, which can come across as being harsh or rude. I am trying to be more patient, peaceful, quieter in my spoken word. I catch myself covering my mouth and walking away at least in apologetic reform when I catch things in time.
Learning….growing…never ends even when you yourself is now the grandmother in the family.
Sometimes I just sit quietly and let everyone in the room direct the conversation where they want it to go. It is getting easier.
I see how much I want to still teach my children as they are now raising their own families. I am a teacher at heart and always wanted to be one, yet, the student must be ready for you. I must wait.
God gave us a gift though. We can always GO TO HIM in our time of need. Our need to be still needed by our children, as it wanes, and we must let go…it is sometimes hard.
Instead, I will “PRAY” for so and so….or this and that….if it was a subject that I felt I was being excluded from. Maybe I was shushed or given the “look” or they just left the room altogether, or talked over anything I had to say. Better if I just keep quiet sometimes.
It seems the only conversations I really care about having with my children, the ones I want and feel the need to have the most lately, are those centered around my faith. Maybe with all the alone time I have had lately, getting older, kids gone and busy, the China virus and government lock downs, etc…. I have had more time to pray….read my bible….play church tunes on my piano, enjoy spiritual things. I need God more these days of darkness and gloom.
I am being spiritually nourished and then I see the struggle family members go through because their faith is not the same. We all grow differently or not at all if we are without faith altogether.
I only care where my children and family members and friends and foe will spend eternity. It weighs very heavy on my mind as I know we are certainly in the “end times”.
Ever closer is THE DAY that Jesus will come again. Believe it or not.
There is no stopping what the prophets foretold long ago. God’s
plan will see that all things are finished. Even Satan knows more the the atheist, that it is true.
Meaningless…in this world, everything is meaningless. (Ecclesiastes)
I am so glad God has taught us to pray, encourages us to pray and hears our prayers. “The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.” (James 5:16) Sometimes it is all I can do. God is always at work. I pray he sends workers to share His word with my unbelieving loved ones if I can’t reach them.
All I can do is pray God equips myself and others to be bold, have courage and give us a burden for others so we will share the Gospel with them, willingly and without hesitation. Faith comes by hearing the Word of God. Read it to you grandchildren.
It matters what we say to those around us. It may not make us popular in some circles. You may find yourself becoming lonelier and lonelier but I promise you, you will draw closer and grow closer to THE ONE who has loved you even before you were born.
Someone needs to tell them…..those going down the wrong path.
Someone needs to tell them…..those trying to find joy in all the wrong places.
Someone needs to tell them…..if you die today….who will tell them…if not you…is there someone to tell them about JESUS?
Even so….God hears our prayers and it is HE…not WE…that does the work in our loved ones to help them come to HIM. We are the workers to bring the message…plant, water, take care of the seed.
ONLY GOD CAN MAKE IT GROW and BEAR FRUIT!
How beautiful upon the mountains Are the feet of him who brings good news, Who proclaims peace, Who brings glad tidings of good things, Who proclaims salvation, Who says to Zion, “Your God reigns!” (Isaiah 52:7-NKJV)
This is to My Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, proving yourselves to be My disciples. (John 15:8)