Doing Nothing – My Dry Well

Here I am…doing nothing.
I should be doing, growing, creating, earning.

I write about nothing, express nothing. I am empty. My well is dry. Only God can fill me.

Nothing motivates me, inspires, excites or lifts me up….today.
Maybe this too will pass…how I feel today. I feel better on rainy days.

Maybe I need to get a diet coke. Maybe I should not have been in the sun so long
weeding my flower beds.

What am I to do with my life now without money? I used to bring in money.
I can’t spend our savings or retirement just because I want to buy a bag of potting soil or upgrade my website to sell things.

I checked my phone this morning and no one left a message. No one sent a text.
I shut my phone off and left it on my bed stand. What’s the point. Everyone is
busy with their young lives and no one will need me until Tuesday when I
babysit, unless someone needs something sewn.

I don’t like doing nothing.

I could play my piano or clean my house and I do have an afghan to finish.
I could start some needlework, or pick some wildflowers that I could press.

I could go upstairs and read and then just lay my head on my pillow. I could sleep and
take a nap. I could write a letter.

I don’t like doing nothing. Nothing is all there is sometimes and that’s alright too.
Maybe it is a good thing to just be content with nothingness. Nothing satisfies anyway (but Jesus…I know that). Even Christians can feel empty….unmoved….maybe I am just suppose to wait.

Nothing…. does not come along everyday, so maybe I should be grateful.
I am usually very busy. Still…I would rather be, that, then doing nothing.

Nothing has a hold on me but at least nothing….is free.

I wonder how long nothing can last?

By cushn4

Now retired from my sewing business yet all about the business of serving my family and creating things to sell in my store. I love to have some purpose left in me. I hope I can encourage others and bring the light of Jesus most of all to this dark world.

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