Nobody Home – Invisible

I know I am not rejected. I know it is just part of getting older. Is anyone home to take my call or answer my email?

I have heard it from so many who are elderly in nursing homes when I worked there. Their sad faces could tell the story. Loved ones long gone and friends too. Now even the home they once lived in has been sold for them to live out the rest of their lives in one shared facility with strangers and a single bed at night to lay their head.

I check emails and none get a response but for those from an acquaintance I may have just met on the internet who shares my same hobby.

Texts come in from family if they need something. I confess, I rarely hear my phone anymore because often times I set it down in another room and forget to take it with me to the next. I hate phones. I love face to face.

I ask an old aunt if she wants company on a particular day. It doesn’t seem to work out. I used to have many older women I could spend time with when I cleaned houses. They were like adopted moms to me since mine was gone and we never were close anyway. She had her favorites and I was not one of them.

I do have my hobbies, my housework, my baking if I want to finally make that carrot cake tonight. Yes, that is a good idea. My company is coming tonight to finally try the BOOYA they missed out on when they forgot that I was waiting for them.

It is overcast and cold today but my heart is joyful. I really do like to be alone in my home by myself. I will work on that piano piece I wanted to perfect. I am happy to be alive and glad that Jesus walks with me. I am never alone and always have someone who loves me.

Do I spend too much time thinking about my own self? Is that the problem? I just need to accept my life can only get quieter than this so get used to it….I think. Maybe I will spend more time crocheting.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.” (Isaiah 43:2)

Published by cushn4

I like to write for the pure enjoyment of writing short excerpts about life in general. I would want my writing to bring inspiration or encouragement to the faint-hearted or those looking for some direction, purpose, or meaning. I am searching daily for what it is God wants me to do and who he wants me to become. It is a growing pain for me. We all have something new we can learn and share with others.

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